How being a single mom changed my life

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By Nikki Viola (Marikina, Philippines)

June 27, 2021


I always tell people close to me with full conviction that I will be the “cool tita or ninang” to my future inaanaks. Being single for a long time made me “in a relationship” with my career, prioritizing work above anything else. 

My number one motivation is I have to provide for my family as the eldest of four siblings, and with my mom being sick, and my dad as a senior citizen. I feel like I was born to provide and help my family in any way I can.

Growing up, I was raised by my parents to believe in my capabilities and use my strengths to survive and conquer the world. I have been very blessed that I have my family’s support in what I love to do since day one, so I promised myself that I will do the best that I can to give back the love, effort, and sacrifices my family has given me.

Though romantic relationships and dating took a backseat because of work, I was always thankful for the love of my family and friends. I also felt that I was at the peak of my career where I was slowly, yet surely accomplishing my goals. I was living the life I prayed for.

But God has his ways of turning things around.  It is true, he is indeed full of surprises.  When I felt that I truly found my purpose, he showed me that I can do more, I can be more.  

When the pandemic hit last year, I found out I was pregnant.  With the fear of uncertainty brought about by COVID-19,  I wasn’t sure with the decision that I was going to make.  I felt like my almost-perfect life got shattered into pieces as I was not expecting the news at all.

The consequences of my past actions hit me hard.  Am I ready to become a mom? How am I gonna raise her alone? Am I capable? Will my work be affected? So many questions went through my mind. Not to mention that I was dealing with it alone in the beginning of the pregnancy because I know that I will be heartbroken to see my family’s disappointment.

Then came the day- my confession with the family. I was able to share the news with the people closest to me and prayed so hard. I remember that day, my family’s complete, having our usual family bonding when I announced the news. I cried so hard, apologizing and ready to accept their reaction. But my mom just hugged me while I cried. My mom’s hug gave me comfort, as if it's God’s hug, telling me that everything will be okay. After confessing, I felt like I was finally able to breathe, and accepted my new purpose in life: TO BECOME A MOM.

With my family, friends, and God’s guidance, my whole pandemic pregnancy journey was smooth-sailing. When my baby was still in my tummy, I always talked to her, telling her that I will try my very best to be a mom that she can be proud of. The fear that I felt the first time I heard I was pregnant changed into excitement, because I know God gave me the biggest blessing of my life.

Being a single mom is the hardest, most empowering thing I’ve ever done. It changed me big time.  From someone who always tells people “work-is-life”, I learned the value of work-life balance when I gave birth to my Baby Adeona. Seeing her everyday gives me a sense of fulfillment, knowing that there will now be someone who’ll love me deeply, even if I don’t have a partner.

To rely entirely on myself to raise my daughter gave me another sense of responsibility that ultimately made me much happier and empowered.  Though being a single mom will never be a walk in the park, I am blessed to be given a strong support system (family, friends, God) to hold my hand and guide me in my motherhood journey. 

Things didn’t go as I planned it to be, but with God’s wonderful surprise, I am ready to embrace whatever life throws at me.  I am also not looking for anything (or someone) to make my life easier- after all, it’s the tough stuff that reminds me what I’m made of.

Nikki Viola

Nikki Viola is a TV/Events Host, Courtside Reporter, Sports Correspondent, and a proud single mom who dreams of helping people to be the best that they can be.

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